June 2021 Update

Hi y’all! Hope you’re doing well, because I’m doing great. XD I’ve been taking things easy, focusing on what I enjoy, and how best to translate that into other aspects of my life.

Recently, I’ve been making a lot of progress on my private writing, so I’ve been planning on getting back to working on some things to potentially share. I’ve been enjoying, just generally enjoying things 😁, and wanted to share over the next few months things that have been bringing me joy. Over on my music blog, I have a new post coming soon after this one that will go a bit more in depth on some of what I plan to share next, but here I can tell you a bit of what to look out for.

Writing! It’s still being done, but I’ve been feeling a shift in the type of writing I want to do and share. I will be participating in Camp NanNoWriMo this July, to finish what I’ve been working on, then it’s a new project planned for November’s NaNoWriMo event. I also have some things I want to write about, but I’m not sure how exactly I want to write them. We’re exploring and experimenting with form and media, so we’ll see what ends up happening in the end. 😌

As you probably already know, I don’t just write, I like to do a little of any and everything I can. XD I already have my playlists for next year’s Valentine’s Day planned, now I just need to do the art, but I’m marinating on the songs for a bit before I do the covers for them.

In other music related news, I plan to be a bit more active on my music blog, and musically in general. XD I’m planning on picking up another instrument and am looking forward to sharing my progress and fun covers.

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I’ve had this idea for a while, picking a new hobby each month and sharing my learning journey. Who knows, this might be the beginning of such things? I love learning new stuff. I already have a YouTube account, Twitch, and Instagram — it might be fun to share how I like to best have fun, trying new things. XD I guess between now, and starting my new instrument, I have enough time to put some things together. 😁😁😁

I’ve really enjoyed writing purely for fun again, but I’m also realising how much I just generally love telling stories, and there are so many ways you can do that! I think the lives we lead are full of interesting anecdotes and tales, and what I really enjoy is showcasing this. Stories are what connect us and help preserve and facilitate community. They’re how we understand and learn our cultures and traditions. I really love learning about people, and the stories of our lives are one of the most beautiful ways we can recognise and see each other. Anywho, I’m looking forward to sharing more about the stories that make up my life, and sharing my explorations of the stories that make up the lives of this world.

Hope you all are having a great day!

Sentimental, It’s Up!

Thoughts

Sentimental! I finished it last month and have been so eager to share it. XD Finally I’m able to. If you’ve noticed…the blog has changed a bit XD. I added a new page for housing links to downloads and I changed the theme a bit. I think I’ll change the theme a bit more later, but I was feeling the floral vibe.

Back to Sentimental tho! I had a lot of fun working on this and I can’t wait to share more things. There are definitely poems and art that didn’t make the cut, plus it’s already a bit outdated as far as my current writing goals and interests. I’ve spoken a bit about it on Twitter, but I’m really interested in further exploring visual storytelling. As you may already know, I’ve been working on a game, but that’s just one way to tell a story. I’ve often played around with writing scripts, but never sat down and finished one because I wasn’t quite sure how best to tell the stories I wanted to tell. The stories I’m working on now are fairly clear in what mediums I think they suit, so I’m excited to go back to playing with scripts and messing around with a new way to share some writing.

I found I really enjoyed the art aspect of Sentimental, and I’ll probably make more art/poem pieces later. A bit like my Valentine playlists, I realised I really enjoy making the art first, then setting it to words. I wouldn’t say making or finding things that fit the poems was difficult, however I often found myself wanting to create something entirely new and set the collection in a completely different direction. There were so many aesthetics and themes I wanted to explore, limiting myself to the given poems was hard. XD I’m definitely going to keep making more inspired art.

What Next?

I have some personal projects I’ll be working on, GMing a game of FAE next month and working on care packages for friends☺, but when not working on those, I think I’ll return to trying to finish TLGaOS. Somehow my “cute little short stories” have turned into little almost-novelettes so…we shall see. XD Editing will hopefully take them back down to a manageable short-story length, then I’ll put that out. Not sure about selling them to mags since they’re meant to be together…however they are all very different, it wouldn’t be bad to direct the stories to individual audiences that might appreciate them more separate than together. XD Less confusion that way. The worlds in TLGaOS are all completely different, and the setting genres aren’t all the same.

As far as Yaisha, or The Monk and the Prince (G&Y) as I’m now calling it, Sentimental and a zine discord I’m currently in made me want to explore the world a bit more. I’ve been struggling to get the story written, so I figured more worldbuilding and researching, plus trying to get a better feel of characters and the setting will be nice. A couple years ago I did Blood and Ink, which is a poetry month challenge for October, and I ended up writing a few poems about YnG characters and the world.

It was all completely accidental, the prompts just lead me in that direction, but I ended up really enjoying working on these poems and wrote a few more after the event was over. I think I want to explore the histories and stories of this world in a different form than the story I was working on before. It might end up an epic poem, might end up a “collection of historical fragments,” who knows? XD I’m just gonna do whatever this story seems to want.

As for everything else, I’m just focusing on doing what I can, when I can. All in all, I hope you find some things in Sentimental you like, and I hope your days go well. Sentimental was a lot of fun to make, and I hope it brings you as much comfort to read/look at as making it brought me. 🤗🤗🤗

Woo hoo! We done!

It’s been about two years since I first decided to try my hand at creating a little poem collection. What began as a fifteen poem chapbook, turned into an experiment with word and art. Sentimental has been a project about pulling the recognizable out of abstraction. I had a lot of fun working on the art, and can’t wait to begin work on new things taking all I’ve learned from working on this project.

I plan to make Sentimental available next month. I’m still working on how I’m going to publish it, I think it may be as simple as adding a download to this site? We shall see. XD

I’ve been really busy these past few months, but that’s now coming to a close. It’ll be nice to start working more on other things. Writing is a sludge I’m trying to push through, but I think I might just turn my attention to things that use up less energy, like kicking off my FAE RPG set in my Supers world and researching for other projects. One thing I miss from the days Sentimental was written in, writing didn’t feel like such a chore. It’s hard these days to write with the intention of sharing it, and feeling like the process is worth it. Sentimental is a personal project, but it’s also one I did just for fun. I wanted to try something new and get my words out there. Even the art was simply because I felt as if the full scope of Sentimental wouldn’t be complete without the art I felt paired with that phase of my life.

Sentimental marks a moment in time, and it’s nice to see and reflect back on things I once did. I have new interests, new writing styles, even new speakers in my poems. XD It was an exploration of styles and genre of art I didn’t often connect with or utilize at the time. Now I find myself realizing I want to add art and poetry to everything I do!

It’s interesting how Sentimental was made as a way to cope through a hard time of my life, and now when things in the world really look dull, I find myself happier and more encouraged than before. Sentimental, in a way, prepared me for the now we live in, and I hope it brings comfort to others as it brought comfort to me.

I’ve talked a bit about my migraine, but I haven’t gone into detail about other aspects of my life. I’m sure at later dates I will, but for now enjoy these snippets of insight into my own experiences and navigation of this world.

☺☺☺ (Three Happy Faces in a Row)

A digital painting wip

An update! I’ve been busy thanks to a move so I haven’t had time to work on WBJ. I also had a bit more low energy days than usual, but lots of time to think more about my projects, and just generally think about life. I’ve got a lot of goals I want to achieve, but I’m enjoying taking my time to create the art and projects I want to. I’ve also been able to finalise some things!

So here are my updates in no particular order .

  • Farm Lyfe

My story inspired by some of my favourite games finally has a medium I’ll write it in! Looking forward to sharing with you all my game. XD Farm Lyfe (title still in work) will be a Harvest Moon inspired game following a young adult protag who has inherited their family’s ancestral farmland from their recently passed grandparent. The story follows your character as they spend time back in their homeland and make the decision to remain and bring the old farm back to its former glory or return to the city their family now calls home and try to begin a new family tradition.

The game will have the usual things, different love interests, farm/other trades mechanics, timed relationship events and etc.. I also am really excited to work on the more fantastical aspects of the game/story. Something I love abt Harvest Moon is the magical aspect. The home region of the MC is a place with a rich history and vibrant culture that reflects the environment it’s named for. Trying not to spoil y’all, but I’m reallly hype for this!

I’m also going to be pairing with a friend to try and make a lil comic for it. Figured while I’m playing with mediums, I’ll try my hand at other forms of script. XD Look forward to it!

  • The Lemon Grove and Other Stories

I’ve spoken a bit on twitter about my series of short stories about Black women in love and being loved, and this is it. Working on Yaisha (Y&G) has taken a back burner for doing more research and such. I want to flesh out more of my world before I dive back in fully, though I’m still writing a bit as I go along. I haven’t written a short story in a good while, so I thought I’d work on this between other projects.

Each story of TLGaOS is centered around a Black women on the precipice of…something. XD First we go to a fantasy land on the rise again after war, and follow our heroine who is a burgeoning journalist in hopes of single-handedly bringing a new way to connect the diaspora displaced and now in need of a different way to keep up with family, friends, and their past communities. Our next story takes us from valley countryside, to the mountains. It is a different time and new place. The stories, while similar in theme, all take place in a world of their own. The second story’s heroine is an older women who’s been forced to return to her home town after an unlucky stint in the big city. Her dreams of making it big as a writer in an unsleeping city have fallen through, and she is forced to reassess what it is she wants her life to mean, and how she means to get it. The last story is about a young starlet shrouded in scandal. After her embarrassingly public divorce from her ain’t mess husband, our heroine must decide what her next steps in life will be. Having dedicated everything to her career and her relationship, not realising she’d left nothing over for herself, what now?

I’m really excited to be working on these!!! I love the characters and their worlds, and am excited to try working on something that the whole goal is just to tell a story and let it be. XD I have no interest in diving back into these worlds, though I do want to have fun building them up and following these protagonists as they come to another turn in their lives.

They’re all romances, the relationships will be m/f and f/f, with a lot of emphasis on community and family. I’ve had the story for these ideas in my head for a while now, but I think now would be a great time to get them down on paper (maybe literally…it’s been a while since I broke out my fountain pens XD). I can’t wait to share these stories with you all! If you just wanna see Black women get loved on and cared for, this will definitely be the collection for you.

  • Sentimental

So…I’ve been working on this poem collection for what??? Two years now? XD I can’t believe I thought it would be so easy to finish and get out, though I think I expected it would end up taking longer. XD Always good to think optimistically, I find the end results often are more encouraging than what I could have come up with before.

Sometimes last year (I think?) I decided I wanted to incorporate more art into Sentimental, so that’s what I’ve been working on this year. I’ve further finalised the poems, and now it is coming up with and deciding what art to pair them with. Words just seem so bare when they’re on their own, and I think over the span of creating this/working on it I’ve realised how much I really do love the many different art mediums and how much I want to be an artist that isn’t tied to just one form. Deciding the style of art, it’s form, how it will appear in the book, etc. has been really enlightening and entertaining.

It’s no secret that I’m really a novice when it comes to drawing and painting, and tbh I’m a bit of a novice when it comes to poetry too. I’ve always written, but I’ve always told stories or presented information and opinion. I haven’t really tried something like this before, something so rooted in formality, yet is both personal and dynamic. Poetry and art is weird. XD

I think I always go back to noveling and story writing because there is a solidness to it that is comfortable and grounding. Even when writing about fantastic things, I often go at writing as if I am writing down a history of events, what I’m writing is something rooted in reality. You can’t really be too metaphorical or haphazard when writing a book. How will readers know what you mean? How will they know what is and isn’t “real” as far as the story goes? What will they be able to visualise and understand if you only talk in maybes and feeling? What can they intuit from abstract? Poetry is difficult because it is a more abstract way of saying something. To be honest I don’t always get a lot of poetry, but writing poetry is fun, and making visual art is fun. Visual art, particularly for me, is more of a hobby than anything, but I like how it can add another level to anything you’re working on so I’ve been looking into incorporating more of it in my overall work.

Sentimental will definitely be interesting, that I can say. I’m looking forward to creating something a little different than what I originally set out to make. Working on this has been fun, and I’m already looking forward to working on my art medium hybrids. XD Definitely look forward to some new zines sometime in the future. Especially with the internet being what it is, and digital media being a thing, I’m really looking forward to creating something special later one incorporating all the mediums and styles of art I love!

Outside of my lil projects, I’ve just been having fun making things. Working on some private writing projects, doing stuff for fun with friends, jsut doodling and playing around with art apps. It’s been nice taking what moments I can to just have a good artsy time. XD I might share some of it later, might just keep it to myself. We’ll see.

Hope y’all having a good week and looking forward to your weekend. Hope y’all staying safe and doing what you can to find moments of rest and peace.

Ttyl (Talk to y’all later lmao)

WBJ 👀

So in a wild turn of events, working on my story hasn’t actually been as easy as writing my migraine essay. XD Usually it’s been the opposite problem for me. This has been a strange month as far as migraine and having the spoons to write goes. I will eventually complete World Building June, as I did Blood and Ink, but I will take my time with it and finish and post it over the course of the summer. Besides, Yaisha is a story that’s undergone a lot of changes since starting it, and it seems it just refuses to be an easy write. XD Even the world building is going to take me a lot more time and energy than some other stories. I’ve also been considering working on my Mystic Falls story as well (the vampire/werewolf romance), and will probably work on this world for WBJ too. XD

As far as sharing things goes, I’ll post days individually on Patreon and share them in bulk after I’ve built up a weeks worth here. I like sharing bulk posts. XD It’s fun to see how the world comes together as you build it up. I also will be mote careful of keeping out spoilers on these posts, but as someone who doesn’t mind spoilers and likes seeing and sharing the full writing process, I don’t mind spoiling y’all a bit on Patreon. 😉

The daily posts will be free, but ones with spoilers (if any) I’ll add to the pay tiers. XD If you don’t mind waiting to see the edited version later, you can just see the full post later. Or, if you don’t mind potential spoilers, you can just become a patron. XD

I’m already done with D1. I think I posted it? If not, it’ll be up for free on Patreon soon. XD

Hope y’all having a blessed day wherever you’re reading this!

XOXO

WBJ Day 1

Q1. Tell us about your world.

This month I’m choosing my World of Three universe to focus on, the world Yaisha and The Champion (and possibly more, not sure yet) are based in.

TWoT (The World of Three), is a world consisting of 3 planes/realms.

  • The Divine Plane
  • The Mortal Plane
  • The Magic Plane

Divine Plane

The Plane of Divinity is a purely divine, four-dimensional plane that exists “above” the mortal one. It existed long before the other planes, however no one knows exactly when or why it came into existence, and the beings who live there are too old to remember (and have their own memories/lore about the world). This plane is home to the Deim, divine beings who exist outside of all natural and magic law, though they often can be found having talents in both magic, and natural things. Not much among mortals is known of its actual contents, or even where exactly it is, but it is generally accepted to exist (how mortals can understand it) above the Mortal Plane.

Mortal Plane (Earth)

The Mortal Plane exists between the Divine and Magic worlds. As the world between the two, it acts as a sort of intermediary. Here both the laws and rules of magic and divinity coexist as well as a new third law, the law of nature. Though all laws are powerful in their own right, when melded together you have truly unique and amazing potential. Things that people might consider miracles exist solely because of the unique interaction between these three laws.

The Mortal Plane is the youngest, but most influential plane of the three worlds in TWoT. It’s also where most the stories take place (though there is some dalliance into the other planes). The plane was created over 300 years ago, and continues to grow and spread. It is the result of a few Deim and Magin coming together to create a new world after a thousands year war nearly destroyed their own. In an effort to unify, this “middle” world was made.

Those from the Mortal Plane are generally just called Mortals, though their official name is Morim, as the life span of mortals ranges and not all born in the plane are purely creatures of the plane.

Magic Plane

The Magic Plane is a plane of pure magic. Often confusing and difficult to make sense of, even for Deim, it is sometimes referred to as the Chaos realm. While it exists in a set place and time within the world of three, appearing as if a distant planet, it’s appearance is deceiving.

Unlike the divine or mortal planes, the Magic Realm consists of many different planes in one. It’s planetary appearance is simply a hub with many “doorways” into the various existences that makes up the Magic Realm. The realms themselves are always changing and shifting, as magic is a thing in constant motion. Only the Magim, those of the Magic Plane, can truly exist and understand the realms, though many have tried. It is possible to reach the Magic Plane from either of the other two realms, however it is easiest to reach from the Divine Plane, and accessible from the Mortal Plane only with the help of a powerful magic user, or Magim.

It is said that those of the Mortal plane who achieve the highest level of understanding of the Unnatural Arts (as magic usage is refereed to), may transcend to the Magic Plane and become Magim themselves. Currently this is just an unproven theory.

Hah ha!

I finished Blood and Ink a bit late, but I finished it. XD I’m still not sure how I feel about sharing all the poems. Some of them were quite silly., others were just tapped out to give that day it’s words, some need edits, but I’m not quite sure how to fix them to my liking. Either way, it was a fun experiment!

One thing I learned while I was nearing the end of the days was that I tend to write by a theme even without prompts. If anything it was harder to fit the prompts because I had my own growing theme as the course of the month went on, than trying to even think of poems at all. Another thing I learned is that I really am a slow writer, and that my own personal slowness, combined with my occasional health issues flaring up, really means I should stop fighting myself so much and allow myself the room to be slow. It’s annoying. Very frustrating. But it must be done if I’m ever going to get any writing done. It becomes very easy to get weighed down by all the not writing I’m doing that I end up…not…writing.

I may have given myself a couple months rest between, but I completed the prompts and I’m happy. I’ll share some of the poems in a post later on, but I just felt like talking about the process a bit here. Or rather, a part of the process. I hadn’t realised I hadn’t shared any updates since that first week, though I did continue to share some on my Twitter. XD

While I get better at blogging, I hope if you’re interested in what I’m doing at you’ll check out my other social media in the mean time. I definitely mean to keep increasing my activity. It’s a bit slow goings, but we’ve established I’m not much of a sprinter. XD

As far as more poetry sharing goes, I’m looking forward to April! I want to try a daily poem for National poetry month as well! I might even do a poetry challenge. Are there already poetry writing challenges? If not I guess I’ll have to come up with something myself. XD While working on Blood and Ink I found myself gravitating towards my story about the monk and his prince rival (Yaisha). I might just keep following that direction, writing about my characters and the worlds they exist in.

Do you have any April writing plans? I think it might also be a Camp NaNoWriMo month. I’ve been focusing on short stories for the start of the year so I probably won’t be partaking in it this year. Currently working on one in the Neon Days universe and one inspired by a drama I’ve been watching but frustrated with. XD Technically…it’s not fanfiction if it’s all stuff you’ve made up yourself.

*Insert Here*tober

Doing a poem challenge this October while I do Inktober, Blocktober, and work on my story planning. XD I haven’t been able to do every day of Blocktober and Inktober, but doing pretty well on Blood and Ink so far. Here is the first week’s poems, featuring one about one of this WriMos OCs! If you want to see them day by day head over to my twitter and you’ll see the whole thread as the days go.

D1. Poison Apple

Emerald in your eyes
But I do not see the glint
Or smell the fragrance on your skin
Of apple pie and arsenic
After all we’ve done together
Of course I’d trust you friend
How could I accept you’d be the one
to usher in my end?

D2. Starlight

In space no one can hear you scream
Which is fine, they don’t hear you coming
No warning, as what they see is the echo of a millennia ago
When you arrive it is too late
How foolish they were to test the gods
Who designed you just for this
As you swallow them all whole
Crushed by the weight of your stomach
Burned in the glare of your eyes
Devouring charted vessels, moons, entire constellations gone in the blink of an eye
All as they stare in awe at the brilliance of the night
They don’t know what has happened
There is no radio to know that it is silent
Hopeful as they watch you burn brighter and brighter
Fearful joy as you arrive

D3. Incantation

Blue the words around the air
Crisp as they are sharp
Gold the colour of his hair
Sweeter his voice than a harp
Black the rage and his despair
When his love was lost
His grief impossible for him to bear
What more can his victory cost?

D4. Harvest Time

Dare not pucker your lips
You asked for this, remember?
However bitter, swallow it;
However large take it by the bite.
This tree is all your own.
Did you not till the soil, plant the seed,
water it with your own spring?
Who fertilised this land?
The sky, the ocean, the moon, or stars?
No, it was you.
You did this.
Enjoy.

D5. Cat Eyes

Following through the night
Round corners
Over bush
Creeping through the alley

Cutting through the mist so bright
Gone in a wink
And here again

With a yowl
Here it comes
A streak too fast to catch

Purring pleasant at your fright
This cheeky furry friend!

D6. Ripen

Spoiled
The flesh you let sit too long
What once was sweet
Spoiled with fragrance
Cupped in your hand
Oh so divine
That first bite
Spoiled
Your eyes that lead you astray
Your mind that wandered
Your feet that turned
The back that fled
Spoiled
When they did not wait
Browned to mush in your absence
This love you did not savour

D7. Lullaby

Still as the night is dark
Close your eyes
Rest your heart
It’ll all be there in the morning

Tomorrow we’ll have another chance
To play our games
To sing and dance
But today is at it’s end

Hear the calls of twilight
Morning birds have gone to sleep
The evening comes with different trills
Of friends we don’t normally meet

Feel your body resting heavy
Settling warm against your bed
Snuggled tight beneath blankets
Your pillow soft beneath your head

Close your eyes as they are wanting
Let go the worries of the day
Let the matters be for tomorrow
With rest comes surer words to say

Enter a world of wonder
Let sweet dreams be your guide
To a brighter, lighter morning
All the better with rested eyes

Word?

Just went over my poem selection for Sentimental and realised??? I think I’ve got it. I’m really digging everything right now and after a couple more edits I think I’ll have finished the base of the book.

I knew it was a little ambitious to say I’d finish everything in a year, it’s been two now, but it’s something that’s meant a lot to me and working on it and reflecting on it has been a great experience. I have no experience with making and publishing chapbooks so this will be another interesting experience. Writing, I can do. Putting that writing together in a pretty book bundle? That’s a lot harder. XD Even when I’m working on my stories I tend to work on scenes and string them together rather than work on the entire story from point A to point B. I take a lot of diversions and work on a lot of other things instead of just sitting down and writing a story out straight.

Anywho, I can’t wait to finish prettying up Sentimental and sharing it with everyone. It was a hard thing to work on, but right now I’m pretty satisfied with it. I just hope it’s as much a blessing to others as it has been to me. ☺️☺️☺️