☺☺☺ (Three Happy Faces in a Row)

A digital painting wip

An update! I’ve been busy thanks to a move so I haven’t had time to work on WBJ. I also had a bit more low energy days than usual, but lots of time to think more about my projects, and just generally think about life. I’ve got a lot of goals I want to achieve, but I’m enjoying taking my time to create the art and projects I want to. I’ve also been able to finalise some things!

So here are my updates in no particular order .

  • Farm Lyfe

My story inspired by some of my favourite games finally has a medium I’ll write it in! Looking forward to sharing with you all my game. XD Farm Lyfe (title still in work) will be a Harvest Moon inspired game following a young adult protag who has inherited their family’s ancestral farmland from their recently passed grandparent. The story follows your character as they spend time back in their homeland and make the decision to remain and bring the old farm back to its former glory or return to the city their family now calls home and try to begin a new family tradition.

The game will have the usual things, different love interests, farm/other trades mechanics, timed relationship events and etc.. I also am really excited to work on the more fantastical aspects of the game/story. Something I love abt Harvest Moon is the magical aspect. The home region of the MC is a place with a rich history and vibrant culture that reflects the environment it’s named for. Trying not to spoil y’all, but I’m reallly hype for this!

I’m also going to be pairing with a friend to try and make a lil comic for it. Figured while I’m playing with mediums, I’ll try my hand at other forms of script. XD Look forward to it!

  • The Lemon Grove and Other Stories

I’ve spoken a bit on twitter about my series of short stories about Black women in love and being loved, and this is it. Working on Yaisha (Y&G) has taken a back burner for doing more research and such. I want to flesh out more of my world before I dive back in fully, though I’m still writing a bit as I go along. I haven’t written a short story in a good while, so I thought I’d work on this between other projects.

Each story of TLGaOS is centered around a Black women on the precipice of…something. XD First we go to a fantasy land on the rise again after war, and follow our heroine who is a burgeoning journalist in hopes of single-handedly bringing a new way to connect the diaspora displaced and now in need of a different way to keep up with family, friends, and their past communities. Our next story takes us from valley countryside, to the mountains. It is a different time and new place. The stories, while similar in theme, all take place in a world of their own. The second story’s heroine is an older women who’s been forced to return to her home town after an unlucky stint in the big city. Her dreams of making it big as a writer in an unsleeping city have fallen through, and she is forced to reassess what it is she wants her life to mean, and how she means to get it. The last story is about a young starlet shrouded in scandal. After her embarrassingly public divorce from her ain’t mess husband, our heroine must decide what her next steps in life will be. Having dedicated everything to her career and her relationship, not realising she’d left nothing over for herself, what now?

I’m really excited to be working on these!!! I love the characters and their worlds, and am excited to try working on something that the whole goal is just to tell a story and let it be. XD I have no interest in diving back into these worlds, though I do want to have fun building them up and following these protagonists as they come to another turn in their lives.

They’re all romances, the relationships will be m/f and f/f, with a lot of emphasis on community and family. I’ve had the story for these ideas in my head for a while now, but I think now would be a great time to get them down on paper (maybe literally…it’s been a while since I broke out my fountain pens XD). I can’t wait to share these stories with you all! If you just wanna see Black women get loved on and cared for, this will definitely be the collection for you.

  • Sentimental

So…I’ve been working on this poem collection for what??? Two years now? XD I can’t believe I thought it would be so easy to finish and get out, though I think I expected it would end up taking longer. XD Always good to think optimistically, I find the end results often are more encouraging than what I could have come up with before.

Sometimes last year (I think?) I decided I wanted to incorporate more art into Sentimental, so that’s what I’ve been working on this year. I’ve further finalised the poems, and now it is coming up with and deciding what art to pair them with. Words just seem so bare when they’re on their own, and I think over the span of creating this/working on it I’ve realised how much I really do love the many different art mediums and how much I want to be an artist that isn’t tied to just one form. Deciding the style of art, it’s form, how it will appear in the book, etc. has been really enlightening and entertaining.

It’s no secret that I’m really a novice when it comes to drawing and painting, and tbh I’m a bit of a novice when it comes to poetry too. I’ve always written, but I’ve always told stories or presented information and opinion. I haven’t really tried something like this before, something so rooted in formality, yet is both personal and dynamic. Poetry and art is weird. XD

I think I always go back to noveling and story writing because there is a solidness to it that is comfortable and grounding. Even when writing about fantastic things, I often go at writing as if I am writing down a history of events, what I’m writing is something rooted in reality. You can’t really be too metaphorical or haphazard when writing a book. How will readers know what you mean? How will they know what is and isn’t “real” as far as the story goes? What will they be able to visualise and understand if you only talk in maybes and feeling? What can they intuit from abstract? Poetry is difficult because it is a more abstract way of saying something. To be honest I don’t always get a lot of poetry, but writing poetry is fun, and making visual art is fun. Visual art, particularly for me, is more of a hobby than anything, but I like how it can add another level to anything you’re working on so I’ve been looking into incorporating more of it in my overall work.

Sentimental will definitely be interesting, that I can say. I’m looking forward to creating something a little different than what I originally set out to make. Working on this has been fun, and I’m already looking forward to working on my art medium hybrids. XD Definitely look forward to some new zines sometime in the future. Especially with the internet being what it is, and digital media being a thing, I’m really looking forward to creating something special later one incorporating all the mediums and styles of art I love!

Outside of my lil projects, I’ve just been having fun making things. Working on some private writing projects, doing stuff for fun with friends, jsut doodling and playing around with art apps. It’s been nice taking what moments I can to just have a good artsy time. XD I might share some of it later, might just keep it to myself. We’ll see.

Hope y’all having a good week and looking forward to your weekend. Hope y’all staying safe and doing what you can to find moments of rest and peace.

Ttyl (Talk to y’all later lmao)

WBJ 👀

So in a wild turn of events, working on my story hasn’t actually been as easy as writing my migraine essay. XD Usually it’s been the opposite problem for me. This has been a strange month as far as migraine and having the spoons to write goes. I will eventually complete World Building June, as I did Blood and Ink, but I will take my time with it and finish and post it over the course of the summer. Besides, Yaisha is a story that’s undergone a lot of changes since starting it, and it seems it just refuses to be an easy write. XD Even the world building is going to take me a lot more time and energy than some other stories. I’ve also been considering working on my Mystic Falls story as well (the vampire/werewolf romance), and will probably work on this world for WBJ too. XD

As far as sharing things goes, I’ll post days individually on Patreon and share them in bulk after I’ve built up a weeks worth here. I like sharing bulk posts. XD It’s fun to see how the world comes together as you build it up. I also will be mote careful of keeping out spoilers on these posts, but as someone who doesn’t mind spoilers and likes seeing and sharing the full writing process, I don’t mind spoiling y’all a bit on Patreon. 😉

The daily posts will be free, but ones with spoilers (if any) I’ll add to the pay tiers. XD If you don’t mind waiting to see the edited version later, you can just see the full post later. Or, if you don’t mind potential spoilers, you can just become a patron. XD

I’m already done with D1. I think I posted it? If not, it’ll be up for free on Patreon soon. XD

Hope y’all having a blessed day wherever you’re reading this!

XOXO

Hah ha!

I finished Blood and Ink a bit late, but I finished it. XD I’m still not sure how I feel about sharing all the poems. Some of them were quite silly., others were just tapped out to give that day it’s words, some need edits, but I’m not quite sure how to fix them to my liking. Either way, it was a fun experiment!

One thing I learned while I was nearing the end of the days was that I tend to write by a theme even without prompts. If anything it was harder to fit the prompts because I had my own growing theme as the course of the month went on, than trying to even think of poems at all. Another thing I learned is that I really am a slow writer, and that my own personal slowness, combined with my occasional health issues flaring up, really means I should stop fighting myself so much and allow myself the room to be slow. It’s annoying. Very frustrating. But it must be done if I’m ever going to get any writing done. It becomes very easy to get weighed down by all the not writing I’m doing that I end up…not…writing.

I may have given myself a couple months rest between, but I completed the prompts and I’m happy. I’ll share some of the poems in a post later on, but I just felt like talking about the process a bit here. Or rather, a part of the process. I hadn’t realised I hadn’t shared any updates since that first week, though I did continue to share some on my Twitter. XD

While I get better at blogging, I hope if you’re interested in what I’m doing at you’ll check out my other social media in the mean time. I definitely mean to keep increasing my activity. It’s a bit slow goings, but we’ve established I’m not much of a sprinter. XD

As far as more poetry sharing goes, I’m looking forward to April! I want to try a daily poem for National poetry month as well! I might even do a poetry challenge. Are there already poetry writing challenges? If not I guess I’ll have to come up with something myself. XD While working on Blood and Ink I found myself gravitating towards my story about the monk and his prince rival (Yaisha). I might just keep following that direction, writing about my characters and the worlds they exist in.

Do you have any April writing plans? I think it might also be a Camp NaNoWriMo month. I’ve been focusing on short stories for the start of the year so I probably won’t be partaking in it this year. Currently working on one in the Neon Days universe and one inspired by a drama I’ve been watching but frustrated with. XD Technically…it’s not fanfiction if it’s all stuff you’ve made up yourself.

*Insert Here*tober

Doing a poem challenge this October while I do Inktober, Blocktober, and work on my story planning. XD I haven’t been able to do every day of Blocktober and Inktober, but doing pretty well on Blood and Ink so far. Here is the first week’s poems, featuring one about one of this WriMos OCs! If you want to see them day by day head over to my twitter and you’ll see the whole thread as the days go.

D1. Poison Apple

Emerald in your eyes
But I do not see the glint
Or smell the fragrance on your skin
Of apple pie and arsenic
After all we’ve done together
Of course I’d trust you friend
How could I accept you’d be the one
to usher in my end?

D2. Starlight

In space no one can hear you scream
Which is fine, they don’t hear you coming
No warning, as what they see is the echo of a millennia ago
When you arrive it is too late
How foolish they were to test the gods
Who designed you just for this
As you swallow them all whole
Crushed by the weight of your stomach
Burned in the glare of your eyes
Devouring charted vessels, moons, entire constellations gone in the blink of an eye
All as they stare in awe at the brilliance of the night
They don’t know what has happened
There is no radio to know that it is silent
Hopeful as they watch you burn brighter and brighter
Fearful joy as you arrive

D3. Incantation

Blue the words around the air
Crisp as they are sharp
Gold the colour of his hair
Sweeter his voice than a harp
Black the rage and his despair
When his love was lost
His grief impossible for him to bear
What more can his victory cost?

D4. Harvest Time

Dare not pucker your lips
You asked for this, remember?
However bitter, swallow it;
However large take it by the bite.
This tree is all your own.
Did you not till the soil, plant the seed,
water it with your own spring?
Who fertilised this land?
The sky, the ocean, the moon, or stars?
No, it was you.
You did this.
Enjoy.

D5. Cat Eyes

Following through the night
Round corners
Over bush
Creeping through the alley

Cutting through the mist so bright
Gone in a wink
And here again

With a yowl
Here it comes
A streak too fast to catch

Purring pleasant at your fright
This cheeky furry friend!

D6. Ripen

Spoiled
The flesh you let sit too long
What once was sweet
Spoiled with fragrance
Cupped in your hand
Oh so divine
That first bite
Spoiled
Your eyes that lead you astray
Your mind that wandered
Your feet that turned
The back that fled
Spoiled
When they did not wait
Browned to mush in your absence
This love you did not savour

D7. Lullaby

Still as the night is dark
Close your eyes
Rest your heart
It’ll all be there in the morning

Tomorrow we’ll have another chance
To play our games
To sing and dance
But today is at it’s end

Hear the calls of twilight
Morning birds have gone to sleep
The evening comes with different trills
Of friends we don’t normally meet

Feel your body resting heavy
Settling warm against your bed
Snuggled tight beneath blankets
Your pillow soft beneath your head

Close your eyes as they are wanting
Let go the worries of the day
Let the matters be for tomorrow
With rest comes surer words to say

Enter a world of wonder
Let sweet dreams be your guide
To a brighter, lighter morning
All the better with rested eyes

Maybe I DON’T Love All My Kids Equally 👀👀👀

Just finished a scene maybe for my book, mostly just to explore some characters and their dynamics/a new direction I’m taking with them for the story. ;_; When I finished writing I realised I always end up loving my side characters more than my MCs. I think “Emilio”, and technically “Moon Woman”, are the only stories where I’m like, yes!!! I love these MCs so much and can’t wait to write 59405074059742057240 words about them. XD

It’s not that I dislike my other characters, I just end up working on a story and loving the world so much and the characters outside the main plot that tend to add more insight into the outside world. It’s fun exploring worlds. I think I’ll just have to start writing a bunch of short story anthologies because I’m not sure just focuing on one character or even group of characters will ever be enough for me. XD

I also accidentally give other characters the sort of plots I like most. I want to write a certian kind of story for my central plot, but boy can’t I help it if a little angst and drama seeps out of me and into the story too. XD With Yaisha, I wanted to write something a little more light-hearted than what I’d been working on before. Emilio is quite serious, as it follows the life of a young man who was, essentially, a child-soldier growing up and thrust into the middle of a war he wanted no part in (who does?). Moon Woman is a Fantasy/Romance, but the central plot is about the two MCs trying to solve a crime and find out what happened to one of the MC’s relations after a civil war.

I really like serious stories. This isn’t to say that some of my other stories don’t also have serious elements, but I think the overall feel of the stories are just very different. Emilio is a tragedy. It would be odd to write it with the same almost childish hope and brightness of Yaisha. Yaisha has tragic moments, but the MC and his path is very different from Emilio. Their view of the world and the landscape they must traverse just don’t have the same mood.

In saying all this…I really like the antagonist I set up for Yaisha. XD I’m having a lot of fun writing his story and I think I’m not going to have him play a more central role. I’d always wanted him in the story…but is place wasn’t quite as fixed when it came to how to insert him, what his scenes would be, what direction he goes, etc.. I think I might turn Yaisha into a story with different PoVs.

When I initially came up with the idea of Yaisha it was supposed to just be a story about a young monk who gets caught up in this party of adventurers from all over and he ends up joining their party. It was a sort of tabletop rpg type story, something you could imagine a group of very diverse, but somehow they all came together for this game, friends to make. I had a very different cast of heroes and very different plot.

When I actually started writing Yaisha, I had lost my initial idea and only remembered the “monk roped into an adventure” part. Yaisha went from a fun story that was supposed to play with ideas of fantasy worlds and the cultures and creatures that make them up, and became a story about political intrigue, rivalling adventurers (and the many different types of groups that make up this kind of vague title), and a young man who just wants to explore a wide ever expanding and changing newly formed world.

I created Yaisha’s world and ended up going in a completely different direction. I gave it three dimensions, started working on actual governments, cultures, state lines, the works. I even gave the little monk an actual name and purpose. He went from just a sort of kind yet clutzy kid monk who’s life is full of kooky mishaps and adventure, to a young man who’s struggling with his purpose in life and yearns to find a place of belonging despite growing up in a monastery. He isn’t even an actual monk yet in Yaisha! Yaisha is just still in his training stage. XD

Writing Yaisha has been lots of fun! I don’t think I’ve changed a story up this much since Emilio, and even then, Emilio hasn’t actually gone through that many changes, I just have learned more things about the world and how to best work on this story. Yaisha now has, possibly, another main character? Or a character with greater prominence, and I’m really excited to keep working with him and seeing where else this story will now go. ☺️☺️☺️

Yaisha: Meet the Party

Here’s just a little bit about my main character and the others in their party.
Yaisha

Nineteen and naive of the outside world. Yaisha is a monk-to-be who loves his garden as much as the goddess he has pledged his unwavering allegiance to. Smart in his own way but too stubborn for his own good, he often fails in those boring and overly complicated subjects such as the Unnatural Arts, History, and Social Studies. A lover of nature and exploring, he hopes to make the most of his sudden adventure, even thought it means leaving everything he’s known and loved behind.
Ki’tha

Older than Yaisha by a year, but acts as if he’s at least twice as old as anyone he meets, Ki’tha is a young adventurer who travels the world taking on odd jobs and searching for trouble simply because he can. The former member of a notorious city gang known for being a thorn in any governments side within a 500 mile radius, he left a life of crime behind to team up with Axel who he holds in favour for showing him a better use of his mental and physical prowess than crime.
Axel

A man in his 30s, he sometimes wonders if he’s too old for a life on the road and if he should retire as an adventurer and live out the rest of his days in peace as a town blacksmith with his beloved family. Unable to shake the call to adventure however he holds his place in their guild as one of their most sought out swords for hire and hasn’t failed a mission yet. Not willing to lose that title now, he’s more than eager to make sure they complete their mission without losing a single soul.
Qrex

A dragon with an indomitable will, Qrex does what she wants, when she wants, and not even the most daring would attempt to stop her. An adventurer by happenstance, she lives her life in pursuit of one thing and one thing only, to increase the size of her hoard, as most dragons do. A follower of the Obsidian One, she wishes to follow in his footsteps and become a greater warrior of the bladed arts than anyone living or dead. She occasionally teams with Axel and Ki’tha on particularly difficult missions, especially if she thinks doing so will earn her a new worthy opponent, strong technique, powerful weapon, or anything else related to her quest to be the strongest being alive.

The End

So I hit 70,000+ words…I finished NaNo with time to spare…but am I done with my novel? HAH. That’s a good laugh. Nowhere near done. What pushed me over the edge was writing a bunch of scenes and notes and profiles, and everything but my actual story. Storywise, I got 30,000+ in, which I’m pretty proud of. It was a struggle this month, and I’m so glad I actually managed to write so many words, even if they didn’t exactly push the main plot forward, I’m glad I now have something to look back on and rework later. Winter is going to be very busy for me, I can already tell.

Anyone else still in the throes of NaNo? Finished? Nowhere near done? I’m rooting for you! Whether you cross the finish line or trip before you can, you did your best and that’s all that matters.

New Development

I just discovered my original idea for my NaNo story. It was in a book I lost but was returned to me yesterday and I am shocked I forgot about the intended idea of this story. No wonder why it’s been a hard going. XD

Originally Yaisha was going to be about a noble boy turned monk to protect his family’s name and stay out of the overwhelming politics of the nobility. He is sent by his mentor to take a powerful sacred relic somewhere to be destroyed. He teams up with a travelling band of adventurers who see him in town and devided to help him out.

The main cast involved:

  • The Monk
  • Twin Southerner elves, a mage and a rogue
  • A dwarf from the city with a lovely brogue
  • A country dwarf with Mid-Westerner charm
  • A pleasantly chipper human warrior
  • A charming “human” necromancer of unknown yet “I already told this story” origin.

Their adversaries were going to be members from a secret organisation that goes around the world collecting powerful relics and artifacts, and a deity. As you can see some of the original plot stuck. I think I’m going to work on this story too. I intended to make a fantasy world that’s less fixated on ancient history and myth and more intergrated with the modern era and people of today. 

It was also inspired by a Tumblr post talking about all the wonderful accents people could use for fantasy settinga beyond the usual Brittish. I for one am excited to being my NYC dwarf to life, and my slow twang of the South elves.

WELP

So I attempted to make a character sheet, but then I got distracted by actually writing the story and, wow, let me tell you. I had no idea how long this story was going to be. I should have known because it’s a fantasy but I feel catfished by the short fantasy novel I read before November. Foolish me, who forgot it was a novel done in an already preexisting world so half the build up and story has already been told in that universe. It’s just another piece of the pie. Like with comics.

I am glad though, I’m still behind but I think by the end of today I will be caught up, and if I really push it I can get ahead. Whew. I definitely will be taking a break from this story once NaNo is over. I can’t wait to finish the story, but I know I will work myself dizzy if I try to do too much at once. I even changed a lot of the story halfway and now my first few chapters are completely different setting wise from the ones I have now. We went from Tolkein to Outlaw Star in .5 seconds flat. I think I figured out why I was struggling so much though, so that’s good. Everything can be cleaned up and made to fit in editing which is great.

When people say don’t worry about the story and just write, that’s really good advice. It may be a mess in the end, but you’ll come up with so many ideas and even if it’s weird at first, it’ll feel so good to just get something down on paper.

Talk about a roller coaster of emotion…

So my NaNoWriMo journey so far this year started with a roughness, but after not even being able to get to a 1000 words from the start, now am looking at 5000+ and counting (nearly at 6000) and belatedly remember that I already written some scenes out a month or so ago after trying out 750words and forgot to add those to my word count (if all goes as planned I should be able to just alter them a bit and slide them right in). I even forgot to type up a scene I’d written as well, bringing my scene document to 5000+ words and putting me right back on track for NaNo seeing as day 6 is supposed to be 10000 words.

I am, beyond pleased with myself. While, I would feel comfortable to have my daily goals met because of my main document, I feel as if after I finish the scene I’m working on now and sleep I can meet the day’s goal.

Well that’s my update, how are the rest of ya’ll doing?